I feel as though I have not actually meaningfully relaxed for several years. I think I’ve forgotten how. The entertainment and media I consume is generally pretty high-effort. The culture of grinding and improving at Smash has dictated a lot of my free time in the past years. Generally, I find I’m not having fun if I’m not putting in a lot of effort. I don’t play casual games that much because they just can’t keep me engaged (which sucks because there are a few casual games that I actually really like).
Yesterday was a really, really shitty day, for reasons that are beyond the point of this post. I have been struggling to relax over the past couple months and the issue has come to a head yesterday and today. I do not know how to relax. My best guess is to scroll social media, which often is at the most mildly entertaining, at worst sickening, and generally not relaxing.
I’ve had friends and family recommend I watch a movie or show, and my response to this is generally “that’s not really something I do”. I don’t know where to start, and what I have tried to watch rarely keeps my interest.
I’m okay. I just need to figure out how to take time to relax again.